Waiting on the Lord



So, I’ve been having a little bit of a hard time in life lately….

Trying to enjoy the everyday…

Waiting for the means to an end… life is hard.

I recently got a job offer in Boston, MA at a Hair Salon near Harvard University. “It’s that dream job, dream situation, dream benefits, dream city” kind of situation, and I’m currently playing the waiting game to be able to start my “new life”. “New position.” “New city.” “New church life.” It seems like I just did this, and I did a little less then two years ago, (without the amazing job). Starting afresh is definitely a positive in life. I’m excited beyond words that the Lord provided the “perfect” for my soon to be future, but in the mean time, the waiting game is getting harder by the day!!

I miss home meetings, I miss the saints, I miss a active church life. My current job serving tables gets harder everyday… the Lord is trying to gain something in me, I wish I knew what it was so I could just surrender, but that’s not how this works.

I started something new this week, trying to focus on just the Lord and not my current situation… trying to forget that I’m waiting, trying to forget that I have all these details that have yet to be worked out, trying to forget that I’m waiting for a cosmetology license transfer, everything that I’m currently “waiting for” handing them back over to the Lord, and putting them into His hands and not my own.


I took sometime to reflect the last few days, got away from my life in Rochester which I’m not enjoying very much right now… I told the Lord I just need a break, and He opened one up for me. I drove up the coast of Minnesota and just enjoyed the Lord, enjoyed the scenery and started to feel like I’m going to be able to enjoy my life again… I can keep going… no worries, no anxiety, no stress… letting it all go!

I was enjoying this song on my trip:

From the morning to the evening, His faithfulness I see;
His mercy reaching sinners, reaching even me;
And I know, now I know.
Brighter than the brightest sunlight, all doubts and fears must cease;
Sweeter than the sweetest delight, His living Word in me;
And I know, now I know.

That God is there for me tomorrow,
As He is for me today;
That He’ll take my cares and sorrow,
And He’ll wipe them all away;
There’s no crisis that He can’t bear,
There’s no storm He can’t abate;
He’s my God, He’s my God.

Day by day His grace grows dearer; His love has conquered me,
Never leaving, never ceasing, His Spirit constantly
Flooding me, rich and free;
Higher than the highest heaven, He lifts me up to see
New Jerusalem descending, His Bride, His love to be
Eternally, it shall be.

When I was 17 I first heard this song and fell in love with God. I recently heard it and had the same reaction. Such a great song. Here are some great verses that I’ve been enjoying as well.

Psalms 62:5-8 “My soul, wait in silence for God alone, / For my expectation is from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, / My high retreat; I will not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory depend; / The rock of my strength, my refuge, is in God. Trust in Him at all times, O people; / Pour out your heart before Him; / God is a refuge to us. Selah”

I’m not one to be patient, but I realize the Lord has His timing and His way is the BEST way, so… I’m waiting on You Lord! Do what You will in Your timing and Your way. you are the all perfect one, I want what is best for me. Lord direct and lead. Lord my life is in Your hands, and only Yours. Help me to gain and enjoy You more every moment of every day. I just want to gain You. Lord I just Love You, And I trust in You.



Follow Him wherever He may lead

Ruth 1: 16 “For wherever you go, I will go, and wherever you dwell, I will dwell; and your people will be my people, and your God will be my God.

Revelation 14: 4 “These are they who follow the Lamb wherever He may go.”

These are two very special verses to me. There is even a song to the first one that I love very much.

Sometimes I have my doubts and fears they rise up in me, not knowing what to do, not knowing where to go, not knowing if this is of the Lord or of self effort.

I was reading a life study recently which was speaking of the difference between “grace vs. self effort”:

“It is easy to walk on dry land, but the flow of the river makes it difficult to walk. When the water is up to the ankles, we can still walk, but it is not very convenient. When the water is up to the knees, it is more difficult to walk. When the water is up to the loins, it is very difficult to walk. This indicates that before we enjoy the grace of the Lord as the flow, we are able to do whatever we like. When we experience the Lord’s flow only in a shallow way, we can still walk by our own effort. But when the flow becomes deeper, reaching up to the knees, walking becomes much more difficult. We have grace, but the amount of grace we have is not sufficient, so we continue to exercise our own effort.

As the flow increases, it bothers, restricts, and frustrates us. When the flow of grace rises higher, to the loins, this is the hardest time to be a Christian. Our situation becomes quite awkward. For example, on the one hand, we may have enough grace to make it difficult for us to lose our temper; on the other hand, we may not have enough grace to overcome our temper. We have grace, but we still need to exercise our own effort. This is a dilemma. The river of grace is with us, but it is not deep enough. But once the flow of grace becomes so deep that we cannot pass over, we will praise the Lord and begin to swim in the river. As we swim, we will no longer try to stand on our feet. Instead, we will abandon our self-effort and begin to swim in the river.

The less grace we receive from the Lord, the more we need to use our own strength. But when we receive an abundance of grace, we no longer need to use our own strength. Instead, we cease from our self-effort and allow the flow of the river to carry us along. As we are carried along in this way, we can easily follow the Lord and let Him lead us wherever He wants us to go.

The best way for us to swim in the river is to put our trust in the flow of the river, forget our own efforts, and let the flow carry us along. When we receive the abundance of grace, this is our experience.

Although the grace is sufficient, we still need to go along with the flow of the Lord’s grace. When we are being carried along by the river, we should not try to have our own direction. We should forsake our direction and move in the direction of the flow.”

(Excerpt from the Life Study of Ezekiel chapter 26)

In reading this and hearing a message tonight, I realized there is nothing I have to worry about, I don’t need to doubt and fear. In fact the source of these doubts and fears is from the antichrist, because there is no way the Lord doubts or fears. In realizing this, I was enjoying this stanza of a song:

Hymn #863 stanza 7

All things forgetting, cleaving unto Christ,
Applying Him until maturity;
Let us count everything but loss for Him,
For Him, our All in all, eternally.

The whole point in all of this is: I don’t have to doubt and worry. All these things I’m having doubts and fears about are not things I need to worry about, I just need to look away, trust in Him, and allow Christ to work, rain grace, and flow.

On a more practical level the Lord is is control of every situation, He knows every turn that needs to be made, He knows the place He wants us, there is nothing to worry, doubt or fear about. I just need to follow Him and let Him walk beside me.

Lord more Grace, less self-effort!

Everyday Consecration


Time Flies!

You know that phrase “time flies while you’re having fun?” Well I personally have fun everyday, so my time flies away like a eagle.

I have found lately that time just keeps moving, there’s not enough time in the day to do everything that needs to get done. If you have a list of things daily to get done, 9 out of 10 times that list will not get done; and the items on that list get put on the next days “to do” list.

So when considering this matter of how fast time goes by, I want to reflect on spiritual matters.

In the day to day, how much time do you spend reading, whether it be newspaper, politics, business, cooking materials, better homes, whats the clothing looking like this season, make up etc… Etc! Then think about how much time you spend reading your bible. How much time do you watch tv, the news, tv shows, movies? How much time do you spend talking to God? How much time do you spend playing video games, playing sports games, watching sports, going shopping (for clothes or groceries)? Surfing the net? How many times do you get together with other believers a week?

I fall short in a few of these things, and I’m sad to say it. But I have faith that the Lord can and will change this in time.

I do however make it a point to call on the name of the Lord first thing in the morning before I even open my eyes, give my day to Him, keep praying throughout the day, consecrate my life to God everyday, confess my sins multiple times a day sometimes instantly, read my bible, sing to the Lord, and I consistently talk with the Lord like He is my best friend, telling Him all my goods and bads. Because that’s exactly what He is to me, my best friend; amongst other things.

These are just a few examples that I have found I can not survive without, and that make my days better and more awesome. These are things that I have found my Christian life can not exist without, And for my Christian walk I need these things to go on with God and to grow as a Christian.

I was just enjoying this song today:

Jesus, O living Word of God,
Wash me and cleanse me with Your blood
So You can speak to me.

Just let me hear Your words of grace,
Just let me see Your radiant face,
Beholding constantly.

Jesus, living Word,
My heart thirsts for Thee;
Of Thee I’d eat and drink,
Enjoy Thee thoroughly.

Jesus, most precious One to me,
I want to seek You constantly
So you can spread through me.

I would just call upon Your name,
Open to you; I have no shame
Loving You, Jesus Lord.

Jesus, precious One,
Be so real to me.
You are all I want;
I open wide to Thee.

Jesus, Oh living One in me,
Open my eyes that I might see
All that You are to me.

Just let me enter in Your heart,
Never from You would I depart,
Loving You constantly.

Jesus, living One,
Flood me thoroughly;
Take my willing heart
And overcome in me.

Lord I want You to have Your way,
Save me from being Satan’s prey,
I am believing You.

All I can give to You, my Lord,
Is my whole being, love outpoured;
Lord, I belong to You.

Jesus, faithful God,
Gain us through and through;
Use us thoroughly
To see Your purpose through.

I have my ups and downs, but for the most part I’m happy. Thank you Lord for making me happy!

There are some things that I am going through right now, and I have been realizing little by little that no matter what happens the Lord will be with me; and in the end when all is said and done, He is the ruler on the throne and everything under the sun is His. God controls all these things that are happening, He controls every situation and He will use them for good. I love that I have this realization and I can relax!

My prayer: Lord, keep me consecrating my life to You all the days of my life. Keep me enjoying You daily. Keep me coming to You for everything. Keep my skies clear so that I may have face to face time with You. Lord, dont ever let me go. Lord, come into every room in my heart and make Your home there, even the hidden rooms. Lord, make Your desires my hearts desires. Lord, don’t ever let a day go by that I didn’t gain something from You. Keep me coming to You Lord. Lord Jesus I just love You!

Eagles wings being Strength and Grace


When contemplating as of late, all I really want to do it travel around Minnesota to explore and see all that I have yet to behold. Last summer I was able to do this a little, I got to see some beautiful cities/towns/villages, ones mostly on the border of Minnesota and Wisconsin. One little city stood out from all the rest (see featured photos), mostly because of the National Eagle Center they have there, Wabasha, Minnesota.

I love Eagles, the spiritual significance of Eagles, the white face, yellow beak, brown wings, the way they soar across the world like they can protect anything. They are such an outstanding creature. I was reading some ministry the other day that was clearly describing Eagles! I have to say, it just reconfirmed my love for Eagles. Here is the portion:

The Face of an Eagle

Furthermore, we also need, at the rear, a hidden face—the face of an eagle. After God brought the people of Israel out of Egypt and led them into the wilderness, He said to them, “I bare you on eagles’ wings, and brought you unto myself” (Exo. 19:4). This indicates that in the Bible an eagle signifies the powerful, transcendent God. God is transcendent, buoyant, and powerful. Nothing can suppress Him, oppress Him, or depress Him. The more you try to suppress Him, the more buoyant and transcendent He becomes. A Christian has God’s life within him, and this life is transcendent, causing us to have an expression of buoyancy and transcendence. This is the significance of the face of an eagle.

We need to be like an eagle, not allowing anything to hold us, to suppress us, or to depress us. This means that we should be able to overcome both persecution and praise. Sometimes it is more difficult to overcome praise than it is to overcome persecution. Some can overcome persecution, but they are unable to overcome people’s praise. This should not be the case with us. Whether we are persecuted or praised, we need to be able to fly away on eagles’ wings. We should be buoyant and transcendent. This is exactly how the Lord Jesus was in John when the people tried to make Him king after He fed five thousand people with five loaves and two fish. Concerning this John 6:15 says, “Jesus, knowing that they were about to come and take Him by force to make Him King, withdrew again to the mountain, Himself alone.” He could not be held because He had the power of an eagle and was therefore transcendent.

A Christian should not be held by anything. However, it is possible for us to be held by many different things. One believer may be held by poverty, and another may be held by riches. If we would be a proper Christian, we should be held neither by poverty nor by riches. Like Paul, we should be able to say, “I know also how to be abased, and I know how to abound; in everything and in all things I have learned the secret both to be filled and to hunger, both to abound and to lack. I am able to do all things in Him who empowers me” (Phil. 4:12-13). Paul’s word reveals that he had the wings of an eagle. He bore the appearance of a man, of a lion, of an ox, and also of an eagle.

-Life study of Ezekeil chapter 5


Let us now begin to consider the eagle’s wings.

Signifying the Strength of God Applied to Us

According to the pure Word it is easy to see the spiritual significance of the eagle’s wings, the man’s hand, and the calf’s feet. In the Bible the wings of an eagle signify the strength of God applied to us. In Exodus 19:4, God said to His people, “Ye have seen what I did unto the Egyptians, and how I bare you on eagles’ wings, and brought you unto myself.” This verse speaks of the strength of God applied to His people. Isaiah 40:31 says, “They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” This also shows us that God’s strength applied to us is like the wings of an eagle.

In the New Testament the eagle’s wings are the grace, the power, and the strength of God in Christ applied to us. Second Corinthians 4:7 says, “We have this treasure in earthen vessels that the excellency of the power may be of God and not out of us.” This is the eagle’s wings. In 1:12 Paul says, “Our boasting is this, the testimony of our conscience, that in singleness and sincerity of God, not in fleshly wisdom but in the grace of God, we have conducted ourselves in the world, and more abundantly toward you.” Again, this is the eagle’s wings. Furthermore, in 12:9a the Lord Jesus said to Paul, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Because of this, in 12:9b Paul could say, “Most gladly therefore will I rather boast in my weaknesses that the power of Christ might tabernacle over me.” In our experience of the Lord, the power of Christ may overshadow us, even as the eagle’s wings overshadow the covered ones. From these verses we can see that the eagle’s wings signify the strength and the grace of the Lord Jesus applied to us.

In 1 Corinthians 15:10 Paul says, “By the grace of God I am what I am; and His grace unto me did not turn out to be in vain, but, on the contrary, I labored more abundantly than all of them, yet not I but the grace of God which is with me.” This is the eagle’s wings. Whatever we do and whatever we are should not be according to our own wisdom, strength, and ability but by the grace, power, and strength of the Lord. Therefore, as Paul says, if we boast, we should boast in the Lord (1:31). We have no boast in ourselves or in anything else but only in the Lord. His power, strength, and grace are the eagle’s wings to us today.

In our Christian life we all should bear four wings on four sides, showing others that whatever we are and whatever we do is not by ourselves and is not of ourselves but of God, so that the excellency of the power may be of God and not out of us.

-Life study of Ezekeil message 6

We have God’s strength applied to us through wings of an Eagle? This is SO awesome! What could be more awesome than this? So whenever we are feeling weak in ourselves or stuck in our earthly situation; all we really have to do is pray that the Lord would apply Himself to us through the wings of an Eagle, to soar above all our weaknesses and problems. So wonderful!

I just had to share this enjoyment with you all. This beautiful creature that God has created signifies one of the greatest things. God as our strength and grace.

My prayer:

“Lord, thank you for all these things; thank you for soaring over and watching over us. Thank you for baring us on Eagles wings. Thank you for the strength and the grace to go on from day to day in this world that we have to temporarily dwell in. Lord, we love You more today than yesterday! Keep us fully looking to you and loving you!”




Travels and Enjoyment in Life


Recently I’ve been considering what to do this next year, but knowing the Lord has a plan, I just need to trust and abide in Him. Praying a lot! Looking away to Jesus the author and perfector of my faith… He will do what He is good at all in due time. In the mean time I’ll keep praying and searching. I have the desire to move again…. We will see where the Lord takes me, whether it be Boston, London, or even Germany. As long as God is abiding with me, I’ll be happy!

I’ve been traveling a lot this past year. I was able to go to Germany for a month for 2 different gospel trips; Maybe I’ll take the time to write something about them soon. I was able to visit London and Oslo again this year. Feeling blessed. I just recently went to Canada to visit some good friends, and just got back from 12 days in California. I had some good friends graduate from 2 year bible school, and had to be there for support. My life is far from uninteresting.

I work 3 different jobs, and feel blessed that the Lord provides for all my needs plus more. Life is good!

On to a more spiritual note, I have been enjoying reading the Life Study of Ezekiel, and I was reading about the North wind, The Cloud, the Fire, and the Electrum and just enjoyed it so much, here is a little of what I enjoyed:


From the North

Always Beginning with a Spiritual Storm

Our spiritual experiences always begin with a spiritual storm. According to church history, throughout all the generations the Spirit of God has blown like a mighty wind to move people to repent of their sins, to believe in the Lord Jesus for their regeneration, to give up the world in order to follow the Lord, and to be desperate in heart and burning in spirit to serve the Lord. Have you not had this kind of experience? Have you not sensed the wind of God blowing upon you? Have you not been touched by the Spirit of God? Have you not sensed, at least once in your life, that a certain power—the stormy wind from God—was moving upon you, causing you to hate sin, to have a different attitude toward the world, or to change your view concerning your life? If you have never had such experiences, you need to look to the Lord and pray for His wind from the north to blow upon you.

Actually, a stormy wind blows upon us at every turn in our spiritual life. This stormy wind is God Himself blowing upon us to bring a storm into our life, into our work, and into our church. It is truly a grace to have storms coming to us from God. As we are following the Lord, we will experience storm after storm. I cannot say how many storms have come to me, but I can testify that every storm is worth recalling. Every storm has become a pleasant remembrance. I believe that when we are in eternity, we will recall the storms that we experienced.

Whenever God visits us and revives us, His Spirit blows upon us like a mighty wind. We need to experience the Spirit in this way—the more, the better and the stronger, the better. I have the deep longing that in these days the Spirit of God would blow strongly upon us like a mighty wind.


Experiencing and Enjoying God
as the Gracious Cloud

In Ezekiel 1:4 the cloud is mentioned in relation to the wind. Together, the wind and the cloud are an indication that an important transaction is about to take place between God and man. At least from time to time, in our Christian life there needs to be a significant spiritual transaction between God and us. I believe that everyone who has been genuinely saved has experienced such a transaction. We also experience a spiritual transaction during times of revival. First, the Holy Spirit touches us and moves us, causing us to turn to the Lord, to see our corruption, and to repent and confess our sins. Then we have the sense that God is like a cloud visiting us, overshadowing us, and covering us. We may sense also that the grace of God is upon us, covering us like a canopy.

God is the blowing wind, and He is also the covering and overshadowing cloud. Whenever we experience God as the blowing wind, we also have the sense that, after He blows upon us, He remains with us, overshadowing and covering us and brooding over us. This is God as the gracious cloud. The blowing of the wind brings the presence of God to us in the form of a heavenly, brooding, overshadowing cloud.

Many of us have experienced the Lord as an overshadowing cloud. When you pray, repenting and confessing your sins, you may sense that you are under the covering of a canopy or of a cloud. It might have been your experience that during your morning revival or during a time of pray-reading the Word, a stormy wind from God came and blew upon you. Then after the blowing of the wind, a cloud came and stayed with you, perhaps for the whole day. Throughout the day you had the sense that something was following you, overshadowing you, covering you, and brooding over you, and you enjoyed the Lord’s presence all day long.

We all need to experience the Lord’s presence like a brooding, overshadowing cloud. We should not be content with mere doctrines and teachings. Instead of coming to the Bible seeking more knowledge, we need to seek the Lord Himself. When we come to the Word, we should pray, “Lord, I need the wind and the cloud. Lord, blow upon me as a stormy wind from the north and cover me with the overshadowing cloud. Come to me as the wind and stay with me as the cloud.”


The fire seen by Ezekiel signifies God’s burning and sanctifying power. Everything that does not match God’s holy nature and disposition must be burned away. Only what matches His holiness can pass through His holy fire. This can be confirmed by our spiritual experience. The Holy Spirit comes to convict people regarding sin, righteousness, and judgment (John 16:8). Whenever the Holy Spirit touches us and causes us to confess our sins and pray, we will sense the need to be sanctified and to have all the corruption purged out of our being. We will realize that anything that does not match the holiness of God must be burned away. If someone claims to have been visited by God but has no feeling concerning his sins and unholiness, that person has not truly been touched by the Spirit of God. When God visits a person, His holy fire will come to consume the negative things in him. This burning fire also causes us to be enlightened. The more the fire of the Holy Spirit burns in us, the more we will be purified and enlightened.

Our God, the Lord Jesus, is not only the living water but also the consuming fire. Many Christians appreciate Ezekiel 47 because this chapter speaks of the flowing river. We need to realize that the flowing river is not the first thing in Ezekiel. Rather, the river comes after the fire. The fire is in chapter one, and the river is in chapter forty-seven. The fire always comes first. The source of the fire is the blowing wind with the covering cloud. From this we see that the fire does not come to us directly. God comes to us as the blowing wind and stays with us as the covering cloud. Under His covering we are exposed by His shining. As we are under His shining, we should confess our need for His burning and then pray for Him to burn away our self, our old nature, our disposition, our worldliness, and our attitudes, goals, aims, motives, and intentions. We all need to be burned by the Lord in this way. One such burning is better than a thousand teachings.


God’s intention is not simply to burn us and turn us into ashes. God is a good God with a good purpose. What is His purpose in blowing upon us as the wind, in covering us as the cloud, and in consuming us as the fire? The answer to this question is that out of the fire appears the glowing electrum. The burning of the divine fire is for the manifestation of the electrum.

The Hebrew word for electrum is very difficult to translate. In his note on Ezekiel 1:4 in his New Translation, J. N. Darby says that the Hebrew word denotes “an unknown substance; some think a mixture of gold and silver.” One Jewish version uses the word electrum. Electrum is an alloy of gold and silver. Gold signifies the nature of God, and silver signifies redemption. The King James Version renders the Hebrew word as “amber” because the color of this shining metal is the color of amber, which is somewhat like the color of gold. Electrum is not merely gold nor merely silver but gold mixed with silver.

When we experience the blowing wind, we enjoy the covering cloud and then we pass through the burning, consuming fire. The result is the glowing electrum, something shining, lovely, precious, and pleasant. As the electrum, the Lord Jesus is the One who has redeemed us and who is everything to us. He is our God, our Lamb, our Redeemer, our jasper, and our sardius. If we consider our spiritual experience, we will realize that the One who dwells within us today is the Lamb-God, the One signified by the electrum.

In the sight of God, before we were saved, we were base and wicked, having nothing that was honorable or glorious. Praise the Lord that He saved us and regenerated us! His wind, His cloud, and His burning fire have made it possible for us to have Him, the redeeming God, within us as the glowing electrum. Now we have Him as the treasure in the earthen vessel (2 Cor. 4:7), and we have thereby become a people of honor and glory. We need to consider how precious and honorable is the Christ who is within us. As the electrum within us, He is the treasure of incomparable worth. This treasure is the issue of the wind, the cloud, and the fire. The more we pass through the wind, the cloud, and the fire, the more the electrum is constituted into our being, making us a people who are filled with the Triune God and who manifest His glory.

We all need to experience more of the spiritual wind, the overshadowing cloud, the burning fire, and the glowing electrum. By passing through this kind of experience, we become the vision of the glory of God. In our experience we have the wind, the cloud, the fire, and the electrum. Then whenever we meet together, we are the vision of the glory of the electrum, having a precious treasure that is shining and glowing.


We do not experience the wind, the cloud, the fire, and the electrum once for all. On the contrary, this experience is a cycle which should be repeated again and again. Today we may experience the wind, the cloud, the fire, and the electrum, and then after a period of time the wind comes again, followed by the cloud, the fire, and the electrum. This cycle should be repeated again and again throughout our Christian life. From this we see that, in a sense, we Christians have no rest in our spiritual experience. I have been a Christian for over forty-five years, and I have never had any rest from this cycle. Instead, there has been a continual experience of the blowing wind, the covering cloud, the burning fire, and the glowing electrum. Every time this cycle is repeated, more of the electrum is brought forth.

It would be awful for this cycle to stop. In our experience the cycle of the wind, the cloud, the fire, and the electrum should never stop. The more we experience this cycle, the better. It would be wonderful if we daily experienced the wind, the cloud, the fire, and the electrum. This is the real experience of the inner life, and this will bring in the growth in life.

My prayer is this:

“Lord, I want to have all these experiences over and over. Bless me with the north wind, the cloud, the fire, and the electrum on a daily basis. Build everlasting electrum within me, that I might be one to share this enjoyment with others. I don’t want to be one who would never experience these things. Lord, save me from the self, sin, this corrupt world, and bring me into You for true enjoyment as the North wind, cloud, fire, and electrum that You might have an eternal building within me that would help to bring you back. That my life would not be a vain life, but one worthy of loving You. Lord, I love and need You. Keep me loving You for always, even when I dont like You, I’ll still love You.”

Signing off for now…

First Love

imageRecently I have been touched by the Lord in many ways on this matter of Him as my first love. There are numerous verses and songs that speak about this, I’ll name a few, but mostly I just want to say.

Don’t lose your first love!

I love the Lord with all my heart, soul and strength. I have to confess. A lot of the time we get distracted from this in our day to day living. Recently I had some fellowship, and the brother said “don’t lose the Lord as Your first love, don’t loose your enjoyment.” Later he explained that when you loose the Lord as your first love what follows is your loss of enjoyment of Him. Because with love comes enjoyment. Think about it; If you love something or someone, don’t you want to enjoy that thing or person?

He went on to explain “its easy to go about in your day to day just having a ritual of mornings time with the Lord. But unless you touch Him and enjoy Him, you can easily lose Him as your first love and your enjoyment.”

I have to say, I love a lot of things in life and enjoy a lot of things; I will not expand, but I’m sure we all have things and people.

I have a fresh appreciation of the Lord as my first love recently. Here are some verses and footnotes I have been enjoying:

Eph. 3:17-19 “That Christ may make His  home in your hearts through faith, that you, being rooted and grounded in love, May be full of strength to apprehend with all the saints what the breadth and length and height and depth are And to know the knowledge-surpassing love of Christ, that you may be filled unto all the fullness of God.”

Eph. 3:17 footnote: “love”
To experience Christ we need faith and love (1 Tim. 1:14). Faith enables us to apprehend Christ, and love enables us to enjoy Him. Neither faith nor love are ours; they are His. His faith becomes our faith, by which we believe in Him, and His love becomes our love, by which we love Him. When we are rooted and grounded in His love, we grow and are built up in His life.

This was very eye opening “nither faith nor love are ours; they are His”; this means we need Him to love Him! Wow!

Eph. 6:24 “Grace be with all those who love our Lord Jesus Christ in incorruptibility.”

Eph. 6:24 footnote: “love” cf. 1 Cor. 16:22
The enjoyment of the Lord as grace is with those who love Him. In this book the phrase in love, which is rich in feeling, is used repeatedly (1:4; 3:17; 4:2, 15-16; 5:2). Later, the church in Ephesus was rebuked by the Lord because she had lost her first love toward Him (Rev. 2:4). One of the main points revealed in this book is that the church, which is the Body of Christ, is also the bride of Christ, Christ’s wife. With the Body, the emphasis is on taking Christ as life; with the wife, the emphasis is on loving Christ. Therefore, this book emphasizes and also concludes with our love toward the Lord. The church in Ephesus, the recipient of this Epistle, failed in the matter of loving the Lord. Such a failure became the source of and main reason for the failure of the church throughout the ages (Rev. 2—3).

Eph. 6:24 footnote: “incorruptibility”. cf. 2 Tim. 1:10
For the proper church life we need to love the Lord in incorruptibility, that is, in and according to all the crucial things revealed and taught in the six chapters of this book, such as the church as the Body of Christ, the new man, the economy of God’s mystery, the oneness of the Spirit, reality and grace, light and love, and the items of God’s armor, all of which are incorruptible. For the sake of the church, our love toward the Lord must be in these incorruptible things.

Matt. 24:12-14 “And because lawlessness will be multiplied, the love of the many will grow cold. But he who has endured to the end, this one shall be saved. And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole inhabited earth for a testimony to all the nations, and then the end will come.”

I just LOVE this song, and sing it often. I hope you can enjoy it too!

1.) Loving You, Lord’s all I’m living for;
Loving You, Lord, to the uttermost.
Lord, forgive me if I’ve left my first love,
That’s the bridal love to You.
You are more than any one I love.
You are more than anything I have,
Even my dear self; nothing can compare
To my beloved Bridegroom.
I give You the first place in all things by faith.
Let nothing take Your place in all my heart.
Infuse me with Yourself abundantly
’Til we meet, dear Lord.
I’ll love You with the best love.
You’ve the right to take all that I love,
But replace it with Yourself much more.
You are what I need, give Yourself to me,
Do not give all that I want.
Everything is sure to pass away,
Everyone is going their own way.
But I still have You and You have me too,
Loving one another’s sweet.
I treasure my time alone with You,
Just to gain the best love You long for.
My dearest Husband, draw me with Yourself
Into Your chambers right now.
Be the first in all my work and life,
Be the first in all my service too.
In relationships, You must be the first;
Have preeminence in me.

Lord, continue to be my first love. Continue to draw me to Yourself afresh every morning. May You continue to overcome in me and gain me day by day. Grant me a fresh love for You that grows more and more every morning. Lord, I just love You! Keep me for Yourself and preserve me for Your purpose. Keep me loving You all the days of my life! I love You, my Dear Lord Jesus!